20-October 2018: Flirting with Disaster?
I started this blog in July 2017. It started off slow with a few underwear selfies and lots of re-blogged pictures of other guys. Gradually, the personal selfies have increased. Around the same time I started an Instagram profile. Initially, I was probably more active on Tumblr, but there has definitely been some back and forth between the two platforms depending upon how much interaction I have with fellow users at any given time.
I have become more brazen recently doing live video feeds on Instagram where others can hear my voice and see “more” of me. This honestly gives me quite a thrill. Some guys seem to like it, which has truly surprised me. I wasn’t sure if it would mean much to others (apart from myself). The showing off has resulted in more underwear purchases (not that I am complaining about that). My underwear acquisitions (if discovered) could raise some significant questions within the household.
Of course with this, I always have a lingering fear as to whether someone in my private circle may come across my Instagram and/or Tumblr profile and “out” me. Perhaps a small part of me wants this. In fact, my Instagram profile isn’t even set to private! I could easily remedy that. So why don’t I??
But I don’t think I want to be exposed to my family. It would hurt them immensely. My career would be affected as well, possibly necessitating a job change or a move to a new city. So why am I doing what I’m doing? Why do I engage in potentially self destructive behavior? I honestly don’t know. I guess I am questioning my judgment a bit more these days.
While the cat’s away…well you know.
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